29 jan 07

Being the mighty girlfriend that needs variety in her life, marco decided to bring me to the airport to camp one day after work.
i was pretty excited at this thought so ta-dah ...we went the next day..
we wanted to have dinner at some "bird-don't-lay-egg" place (niao3 bu4 sheng1 dan4) so we went er...ponggol to see see look look , and explore the unfamilar territory and human beings walking around..





















we then went to the airport and walked around the terminals.
i love the airport!
even the toilet auntie says hi to me and gave me a big smile =D
then we settled down at some viewing mall and played the game we two sorta created after our trip to Settler's Cafe..
couldn't play bridge cos he said public places cannot play cards! whine.
so after hours.we decided that the airport was eerie and uncomfortable to sleep in so we went back.
haha! next time maybe? =D
i'll bring a sleeping bagg.....
















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Had my Best Buddies training in school that day... its the one-year volunteering contract to be paired with a challenged girl with obligations to call her and take her out on a regular basis..
we went out that day to jurong point with marco...
let's just say i realised, after having done so many forms of volunteering...that this breakthrough takes a lot out of me... its a breakthrough project in volunteering in Singapore cos of the regular contact and exchange of information between the 2 parties...
it was a trying period...and i'm amazed how one meeting can tear me apart.
feelings you can't control...feelings you aren't supposed to feel because she's challenged..is trying at times...
sigh. lets hope i can survive this.
i need strength.




























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i forgotten when was it but i went to marco's house to play boardgames one afternoon
played stuff like "who's the boss" and the "Game of life"...
eeks.
life so stressful still play game of life and face all the stresses of life when games are supposed to help us destress right? heh. so traumatising...keep paying money

haha! = D but we're both in love with board games these days














then we went to have dinner with daddy and mummy at jurong point..
every restaurant have long queue lah. so we decided for crystal jade! nah pictures
look at the last picture! got to pardon marco for that funny expression, i asked the two guys to act cool, and while my brother bo-chap me...marco could only manage that expression while i clicked away. =D




















































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shall leave with a last note, that i just read off my lecture readings while waiting for all my photos to load ...

" people delay marriage not because they are anti-marriage, but rather they are anti-divorce..."

how true....

sociology of family

Studying the sociology of family this semester has made me see myself in a different light.
Are we women getting greedy nowadays?
We not only want to find a husband that loves us...
We not only want a husband that brings home the money...
We want to find a husband that is taller, that is not fat, that has a degree, that has a good job.
And in addition to that, we want MORE..
we want our man to have talents...to be rich (hopefully), to be caring, sensitive, romantic ...to give us a nice home, a nice wedding yada yada....
We do these so unknowingly like its the cost the men must pay to be with us.
am i selfish?
probably...
am i asking for a lot?
not as much as many...but yea..still more than love...
am i still asking for it?
yes
OH MAN...

i shall justify my selfishness by saying that the men are asking more from us women too.
haha!.

photos

PHOTO GALORE!=D
marco and i went to vivo to have dinner and we decided to try this restaurant called "2hot" or something cos its bright red and looks nice. haha.
see..actually the food looks pretty nice!

we also went to the i-future exhibition at science centre!!! heard of it? haha. it looked pretty exciting on Tv..talked about experiencing new technologies...but heh. it was really a very small exhibition hall.. with mechanisms and all that.. but we enjoyed ourselves mocking the silly automata and playing playstation games that are not out in the market now. heh.

you all see this cute little thing. its damn amusing. its a sleep inducing automata. at the push of a button, the sheep will keep going in circles (like counting sheep) so as to make u go to sleep...HEH.

My mother's side of the family celebrated grandpa's birthday at singapore island country club some time ago! haha. there was a bowling and pool session before that but blur mummy thought it was the one near macritchie when it was in bukit timah..so we were only right in time for dinner! but dinner was like WOAH. good food! but good price as well i heard. :P mummy has stomach trouble the next day and she says she's not used to good food. heh.

ohyah..i just put this picture up cos i like what it says:
i'm in a might not needit, might not wear it, mightbuy it anyway kind of mood!
yay .going shopping with yihan in a few hours =D

sian

sometimes i wonder why i'm so disappointed when that someone isn't...

110107

I'm trying to get myself back into studying mode...
but the rain dampens my mood and makes me sleepy all the time.. haha.
alrights, i shall admit i'm just lazy
but i've been seriously mugging ahead for lectures, to pull up my CAP this semester. get a 4.0 and i'll give myself a hundred and fifty bucks to go shopping =)

Anyway a lecturer of mine passed away even before i could get a chance to attend his lecture on friday so the module is cancelled, leaving many frantic students desparately scrambling to beg teachers to let them into other alternative modules. its so scary and depressing to know of his sudden death. its like not knowing when would be the last moment of your life.

and i've always wondered what the last moment of one's life be like..
would you think of all your love ones and regret not telling them i love you once again before you left the house?
would you regret not telling someone how much he or she means to you?
or would you leave knowing your life was beautiful and you'll be remembered?

so i asked myself if i would leave this world happy if my life happened to be cut off so suddenly.
and i think i would.
there may be dozens of things i haven't accomplished in my life just as yet.
i haven't gotten my degree, my phd, i haven't got a chance to put on the wedding gown, or be someone's wife or mother
And neither have i done my skydiving, bungee jumping, and travelled the world yet...

but, i guess i would leave knowing i'm remembered and loved, my friends would know how much i love them., and i'm sure he would know how important he is to me. i guess my life is beautiful because of the love around me, and not the degrees and certs i'll get.
whine..i sound like i'm going to die soon. choy.

to whoever bothers to read my ramblings to this point... i love you! and thanks for being the reason my life's beautiful =)




















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i saw an ex-classmate dance and perform in school yesterday
lets just say something happened in the past that made me compare myself constantly to her from then onwards..
its been years now
but i realised...
i never stopped comparing.
KO.
she wins.
again.

happiee new year!~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

its 2007 already...and i suddenly got reminded that i'm gonna be turning 20 in say 5 months or so.. i used to tell lala its really not that scary to turn 2-0....
but now that it's really approaching...i'm overwhelmed by the fact that major life changes are probably going to happen to my life in this decade, in my 20s... and its almost time to face the real world... this means no more faking MCs when you really don't feel like going to school...this means holding real responsibility.. office politics...struggle up the career ladder...few time with friends...and for yourself...and a lot of things that i don't wanna face yet..
i never keep to my new year resolutions every year...and its really probably the same old stuff every year: to lose weight, save money, and be a better person..
so school's starting and i'm getting a lil' sick of the holidays...cos lazing around makes me feel fat. :P
CHRISTMAS PARTY

the christmas party was quite fun! i guess i just missed the getting together of friends. how heartwarming.
BEST BUDDIES SINGAPORE

i joined this voluntary programme in school called "best buddies" where i'm paired with a challenged youth for a year, with obligations to call them and bring them out frequently, so as to let them learn new skills to survive in their working environment, and to mix with people outside their social circle! My buddy is sharon and i was one of the organiser of this christmas party for them. its so heartwarming to see these group of people so happy, bursting out in laughter at the smallest things. it really takes just so little to make them smile. she was really warm and she hugged me and held my hand all night...aw..

CHRISTMAS

me and marco spent christmas together at the settler's cafe! haha. it was such a pleasant experience!!! good food, good ambience and good company. i love the games! i enjoyed this particular one called BLACKMAIL... its quite evil. you are supposed to put hidden cameras around to spy on the other fella and send him a blackmail when you snap photos of him... then you're supposed to negotiate the blackmail price and all that. haha..it exposed the evil and greedy side of us. :P

LOVE

ooh yea..remember not long ago i mentioned that marco met my parents? well he met lala, cheeks and mao on sunday! its proposed by mao and well..we met up at mac and ate breakfast!! when i got home... dad asked me if marco wants to come to this party at our house on the 1 of Jan..where A LOT of my relatives would be here.. even i'm freaked out at the thought of suddenly introducing him to so many relatives at one shot...but oh well.. it kinda worked out! =D introduced him to grandpa grandma and my aunts and uncles..he got on really well with my cousins and we played loads of games together! bridge...some weird game jonathan told me cheeks invented..bowling..pool...*relieved* i'm really glad it worked out... let my life be a little less exciting for now please....a few days of peace... =)

happenings

HAPPENINGS

DINNER WITH THE "IN-LAWS"...

what a scary day. its the first time my parents are having dinner with my boyfriend...and i'm scared yet excited... marco was equally jittery and we met for a movie before that to calm our nerves first before dinner.. we watched " THE HOLIDAY"... thanks to lala's recommendation and yea.. it was a good movie... i got no idea why i was still so nervous so we went to the arcade to shoot some monsters and hit some random buttons to relieve stress.haha. dinner was at some place called IVIN and we had a great dinner lah.. not exactly flowing conversation but i was trying my best to make things OK... =) loads of pushing food here and there to each other.. so ke qi...

GARDEN FESTIVAL06

we decided to go to the garden festival after marco ended work one day! so we went to the hongkong restaurant near suntec for dinner. dim sum's GREAT...then we made our way to the convention hall.. 6 bucks for a great arty night! i couldn't find stefanie sun's orchid though..

look at this piece of huge black "shit" behind me... its so black and scary right! but its actually quite beautiful inside..its got some scientific reasoning behind the design which i didn't bother to read but look at the next picture...its so magical inside... there's really water dripping from the roof..and sunlight streaming through these tiny holes to create the feeling of being in the forest! its so pretty! there're occassional mist sprays too. haha..:)
love the flowers!


i started to get abit high at the oriental design by a person called "huang fei hu" haha =) see...what a cheena pose..

EVERYONE LOVES XUEFEN

duh...OF COURSE everyone loves xuefen= ) so i went down to support her at jurong point! it was a a short sweet performance and i really enjoyed it. bought her a sunflower. hope she likes it.. she's always been such a darling so how could i not support her...

i really actually wanna mention about the dancing christmas trees performance before their performance. it was so lame lah! trees turning and shaking to like guo meimei's songs... SOMEONE SAVE ME....

genting!

we're back from genting!!! =D what a nice little retreat out of the sunny Singapore to a breezy hilltop. it was a great stress reliever for me...just away from all the hustle and bustle...without anything on the agenda..except to have fun, food and more fun! even though the journey up was way longer than expected..i was really happy to just chill out and look at the beautiful scenery out of the window while grooving to the music on my mp3. i also finished the new storybook i brought there! so contented...

we're on this stop for lunch before we reach genting! ate weird noodles there..yay! we reached genting finally!!!!! waiting for our keys to the 23rd story..shiok ah.we're at the FIRST WORLD HOTEL!!! =D look how happy we are...becausewe're going shopping later.haha :P we three shared a bed peacefully without much kicking from each other and no snatching of blankets! *yay*we went shopping after that! wah.jing was the shopaholic! :P she bought the first and the most stuff!surprisingly i was damn mild there...so i only bought a shirt there on the last day of shopping because i was damn gek that i didn't buy anything at all.haha.ohya! we caught dejavu there! it was such a good show..but that jamie fell asleep through most of the impt parts and in the end complained she didn't understand...-_- we tou pai this boy on the merry-go-round! who does he resemble?!!!! YESSSS... jonathan leong!!! *shreiks*
the duo made me muster up the courage to take this free-fall ride TWICE.. they were like " not high lah not high"...and it was only when we went up that they started realising it was "DAMN HIGH LAH" ...gosh! freaks out... twenty over story lor..i feel like dying when i was waiting for that thing to plunge down when i was at the top....my mind went blank and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i started saying weird things i don't recall.haha :)

we took the pirate ship too! hehe..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and the motion master!! which made everyone wanna puke...
look at us..blissfully eating icecream...it was such a sinful enjoyment.. =D only 4RM!!!
hehe..we were taking photos in the theme park before it started raining heavily..our last photo in there with our hoodies and jackets =D

ohya..while we were taking this indoor rollercoaster i had this small boy sitting beside me who kept a straight face throughout the ride and said "wooooah" and " xia4 si3 ren2 le4" ...and evil me kept saying "so fun! hao3 wan! where got scary!" in response :P

hehe..our last buffet breakfast before we get home!!! yummy! truckloads of honeystars, eggs, ham, bread!
i love my grandparents! =D they were amazed with the timer function of my camera. haha :P

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pre-trip

i thought i might just drop by and post an entry before i set off for genting TOMORROW
ohgosh. i keep reminding myself the holidays are gonna end soon..when they've actually just started! and i got loads of stuff on my hands now...
i've been inspired by the standard charter marathon this year and i decided to go run the half-marathon or something next year!!! so i'm training in the gym everyday now..i'm surprised at my discipline..haha..its never been so when i wanna jian fei...
ooh and i'm currently busy planning for a christmas party with my new pals from the best buddy programme (the one where i'm paired with an intellectually disabled for a year)....and since i'm the organiser..i got loads of meetings and budgets and all that stuff to do.
and i'm also the designer for my psychology club..which means i'm out these days scouting for inspiration..and drawing up blog layouts and noticeboards designs..
its really nice to be drawing again
so i went to artfriend and bought stuff to paint too. OHMAN..i miss the smell of that place...
i've been wanting to paint ever since exam period..i think studying makes one wanna do EVERYTHING except study
hiak.





we'll be fine darling..

photos

haha. i'm lazy to blog because i've been catching up with much deprived sleep so i decided to post some photos and make myself happy
its been a hell of a weekend
haha
i finished psychology paper early, exhausted from the whole week of examinations
i left halfway because i've amazingly completed everything
i think what was nice was that they specified not to write over half a page for a 10 mark question!
haha=D it makes things much easier for a paranoid and kiasu me who writes till the dot everytime for every paper.
went shopping with lala at bugis too! we had lunch at some sushi place in cine! it feels so good to be with lala just walking around, laughing and like not thinking about stressful stuff!

anyway Here's some photos of me and Marco at the science centre!

haha this one so funny! i had to go squeeze through the hole to take this photo. and believe it or not.. a little boy was below tugging at my skirt asking me to go away because he wants to poke his head up. but i was struggling to smile and tell him that i only wanted to take a photo and i'll scram far far away. haha. OOOOOH.. Look at this photo! its of our president! and its pretty freaky because his eyes will shift to the left and right every few seconds! :P
we two were solving puzzles like these ones for hours! and argh. it feels damn dumb not to be able to solve it when we saw a xiaomeimei complete it.haha

everyone!!! you all can consider giving me this kinda mirrors for my birthday or something! seeee... instant slimming so you'll feel so much better about yourself. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. i'll never be so stick thin in my life man.haha. but nevermind..i spent loads of time in front of this mirror to see myself THIN. =D

Then we spent 2nd december yesterday exploring a new shopping place i found on some magazine --- haji lane and arab street.. then we went to check out the red dot museum which is pretty much redundant other than the pretty drawings all over the place and the arty toilets! ate lunch at raffles hospital then went to watch dvds at home. =)

If you happen to read this my dear, happy 6 months =)

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO OUT WITH EVERYONE TOMORROW

ELATED ELATED ELATED BEYOND WORDS!

stats

i've never ever been good at maths
not to say i don't like maths
because i find the motivation to do maths everytime i solve ONE question out of the many in my tutorials and exam...

but this stats paper totally devastated my hopes of taking psychology
i couldn't do ANY of the psychology statistics
this is despite me mugging hard, preparing notes, and FINALLY understanding all the concepts and how to apply the dozens of statstical methods.
i was really happy
because i felt that for once, i understood all those numbers and t test, z tests, paired unpaired and whatever not

2 hours paper
i was prepared to leave after 10 minutes of reading the questions.
I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING
sighs
i wish i was better sometimes.

wednesday

YAY!half of my exams are over=D
i'm not bothering already
ever since i screwed up my first paper with my lack of coherence
i was so irritated that day that i ordered Mac and had it delivered right to my hostel room
ate a chocolate fudge sunday on a rainy afternoon
how blissful
it made me happier instantly
and it was only after that that i had the willpower to go study malay

malay was pretty weird
haha
i got confused at the first part because the comprehension was about a conversation between 2 girls and one of them was an indian girl..so i was like..how come Indians speak malay now...and hehe :P and the composition was an either or question about a beautiful place, or my favourite food.
haha. i guess you totally feel like strangling yourself because of your lack of vocab. the only thing i could write about my favourite food is ":i like to eat sweets because eating sweets make me happy. my friends like to eat sweet too"....so i abandoned this topic there was no way i could write even 30 words, when i had to write 150.
and the other one was quite terrible as well..and i almost said NUS was a beautiful place because i prepared a composition about "My School"...so anyway i decided to write a dumb one about Changi Beach and it goes something like this ( in malay of course)

"I think Changi Beach is a beautiful place .
It is in the eastern part of Singapore.
It is very crowded on saturdays and sundays (i don't even know how to say weekends)
I think Changi Beach is beautiful because it has many nice trees and flowers.
I love the white flowers because looking at it makes me happy.
I like to sit under the green tree and look at the blue sea and sky.
I read a book under the tree and see children swimming.
I come to the beach when i am sad because it makes me happy.
so i think Changi Beach is very beautiful. "

-_- that's all my vocab could bring me.WAHHHHHHH........now i know how it feels when i see people struggle to speak chinese.haha.

i love the history paper! it was so unlike JC history.
one question went
" Why did you study HY1101E? Answer how you can apply the materials of the module to real life.."
and another went
" if you lived a hundred years from 1900-1999" which country in Asia would you choose to be in"

wahaha :P why did i study so hard...


2 more papers to go
my dreaded statistics and my psychology mcq
i'm planning after exam activities already
yay

:(

to think i was going to pass sociology!
AIYAAAAAAAA
so demoralised.
i wanna watch movie and procrastinate.

whine

Thanks baby for the room service

HAIYO

i just had to do everything except study
So... after doing everything else like reading story books and surf the net mindlessly
i decided to blog..
eh..i had promised myself that i would mug damn hard so i won't find time to blog but i'm here...
and i'm sure i'm going to blog during the exam week too :p

the dinner with marco's family was pleasantly nice. we ate at this seafood restaurant with loads of people celebrating their birthdays so the birthday song was kept playing ...
it was a pretty wen xin experience..
haha..i thought i didn't overdress but the moment the brother turned up in shorts i was like -_- OH OH.... :P

haha .okay lah. maybe i'll write something if i got inspiration
i'm so full now.
went with my family to some ulu place for some authentic korean food, some charcoal bbq thing.. it was like da chang jin kinda thing lor gosh. we ordered three plates of main dishes and 18 plates of side dishes came along with it.. its so scary to see a full table of food ! i'm a fat pig..or at least i'm going to be...

actually i'm looking forward to end of exams already

yay

quick quick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

compiled list of unique friends

history is driving me nuts and its the first time i feel like i'm going to fail HISTORY so i'm getting quite worried. so despite the fact that is past 1pm and i should be getting to bed to mug tomorrow, i've decided to destress by coming here to blog and then continue to mug till dawn..
=D
i suddenly feel like blogging about my list of unique (weird) friends because there are just so many of them around!! i love them all the same though. hehe. i am a weird friend myself...
okay..here goes

FRIEND WITH THE WEIRDEST HABITS IN SCHOOL

Let's see...
I have a friend H.H who likes to eat paper. He would tear papers from exercise books, crush them and put the crushed ball into his mouth. i thought he was pretty cool.
When everyone was happily playing with the skipping rope in school in primary school( it was the fashion then what...), he would hop like a frog everywhere around the school.
He also got so pissed by the Chinese teacher during her lesson one day, he stood up, both hands pulling the hair on his head, then suddenly tore the chinese textbook into 2, right down the middle.
Woah..he was my hero then..
he still doesn't like Chinese now. :P

VAINPOT FRIENDS

I decided that actually my vainest friends are all GUYS (i can't believe it)
My friend lawrence sends me at least one picture of himself every month asking me to rate his looks and style over msn.
Still must talk about how to improve if i don't give him full marks... -_- does he trust my style so much?!
Another of my male friend Hes., is also vain! haha. he likes to take pictures with caps and sunglasses to add drama and poseur effects . He's also a model and is constantly asking me " am i the most handsome man on earth or what?"

oh ya! i got this friend in RV who puts a mirror on her desk during A maths lesson and looks at it and combs her hair for the whole duration of the lesson.

haha..i dunno where lala ranks in my list, but i still believe her collection of clothes,makeup,bao2 yang2 pin3 can crush me to death.. :P but lala is lala!!! she appears pretty everytime anywhere anyway =)

FRIEND WHO DOESN'T BELONG TO EARTH

haha.. YM wins! i think he's so out of the world no one can rival!
who asks a girl about history questions during a mass dance?! and i simply can't comprehend the way he thinks! woohoo..

FRIEND WHO IS SO SMART, I DON'T NEED TO THINK WHEN I'M WITH HER

eh. Cheeks is top on the list this time...
1. she's the calculator! i do almost no maths when i'm with her ( or ok maybe i try do maths and she tells me the answer before i get any)
2. she's the street directory of Singapore... i can just attempt to ask her for directions and 90% of the time she can tell u how to go and even give u options then weigh which option is the best for you =D
3. she analyses situations for you! tell her ur problem and she'll pause and think for a while and she'll do the cost-benefit analysis for u and give u good solid advice man!
4. she does maths even when its not needed. when people just chuck away receipts after a meal, cheeks looks at the receipt and tells herself whether they count the GST by adding 10% first then 5% or any other way. :P some compound interest or erm dunno what interest thing..

haha..enough to convince not? i'm pretty convinced! haha.

CHEAPO FRIENDS

Fangwei wins! she's the queen. Even me who prides myself on cheap and nice clothes have to ke tou to her..she always tells me about her shirts being bought at ridiculously low prices like $2.50 and they always look nice ! she'll bring weird liquid paper and correction tapes to school that looks like toothpaste, sweets and she'll brag that they're only $1 from the market
Then she'll not give up on anything free! :P she's adorable. i always give those free pens from whatever rubbish events to her and she'll be elated.

VIOLENT FRIENDS

if you think lala slapping you on the back is violent...i've got a friend who BITES...
she would always say "i feel like biting you"
and for one period of time, she actually went around biting the guys and girls in class...on their backs, necks, hands, legs.....*freaks out*

------------------------------------haha okay lah :P i gotta go mug. blogging about my weird friends makes me happier now! chiong ah!

STUDY CAMP

MUGGING MODE!


i'm mugging in my hostel room!!
m surprised at my efficiency today
i finished studying almost three quarters of psychology in one day! haha maybe i'm just reading the notes and nothing went in...
i'm just happy making my new notes colourful and colour-coordinated.
probably guilty that my weekend was spent procrastinating
eeks. going to finish the rest of it later tonight!!! before i start on STATS tomorrow
did i mention i hate stats now? where is miss ng??
anyway i realise i quite like mugging! it seems a long time since i prepared for major exams like this one!
i like drinking hot chocolate and reading notes
i like feeling like i'm hardworking
yay

marco's mum just invited me to go to a family dinner to celebrate his dad's birthday
ohmygod i'm fainting!!
what should i wear?
Retail therapy anyone?
what should i give his dad?
i fainted.
his brother's girlfriend will be there too
stress...
why do i not feel like i'm 19...
doesn't sound like something a 19 year old has to be stressed about
haha!

=)

pardon my ramblings on the previous entry
i'm okay now
mugging for the exams
don't really have much confidence but i can't let my CAP drop low on the first semester of school!
work hard people! i can't wait to get together with you guys in December!!!!
back to statistics for now
yucks
A level statistics never seemed so easy till now

life ( long entry...pardon my ramblings..ignore this entry unless you're bored .haha)

THE NEVER-ENDING WORRIES OF A WOMAN WHO THINKS TOO MUCH
(long entry...pardon my ramblings...ignore this post unless you're bored..i just needed to ramble)

When i was worried our relationship might be less than perfect, i got anxious.
It sounds rather ridiculous actually...but i was actually worried about something that hasn't even happened...i was just convinced anything might happen...
i was constantly plagued by questions of what if we quarrel..what would i do if we disagree of this and that...
it was almost as though i was too protective over something that i'm treasure so much...
he didn't let me read the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"...
he felt there wasn't any formula to sustaining a relationship other than effort.
yea..its probably right..sometimes the more you try..the more you find that you don't understand someone and the more you feel disheartened

our relationship has its highs and lows.
we squabble over the phone sometimes..
and its so ironic because we squabble because we wanted the best for the other person, we wanted to save each other the trouble...we were just both so protective of this beautiful love we have for each other.
these few days have been so magical for me.
i'm probably a hard princess to please...with my character..i dislike boredom..bring me to a place to eat more than twice, its boring..
eat dinners and lunch and take walks all the time..its boring
i'm so used to drama in my life!
island hopping or rollerblading when i'm adventurous,
sitting by cafes to read books when i'm feeling nostalgic,
singing, dancing, running... i somehow just need something different in my life all the time..
change is my constant.
and i mean rapid changes all the time..
and for a person like my boyfriend to keep up to my pace is probably killing him.
he can be contented with eating the same fare everyday or strolling around in the same parks..
i guess being a relationship and even being friends with people means giving and taking
take a bit of yourself out to accomodate the other.

he came over to surprise me with "room service" at my hostel on thursday and we went to science centre to play on friday.. he spent his off day with me just solving silly scientific puzzles and just looking at those stuff..its really a good place to build a relationship up when u crack ur brains to solve stuff together...saturday was spent at KAP mugging for my exam and me making dinner for him at my house.. ya...look at the activity i need in life to feel un-bored..
i'm a hyperactive.

anyways i don't exactly know how to explain how magical everything was but it made me a very happy woman this weekend..
communication is the key? i finally understood what it means...and communication requires you to tell the truth to the other even if it hurts...and just working things out for the long run.

WHY can't i just be happy and the story ends with me being a happy woman?!?
no...i have to start worrying AGAIN...

Its like feeling like you are his one and only at one point in time...
You are brimming with happiness and bliss, convinced he was waiting for you all his life...
only to start wondering whether you were his one and only all his life
its so ironic for me to talk about this, since i believe in trying out relationships before finding THE ONE, not giving up on love and opportunity.
But being a petty woman, it still feels weird to think about previous people that he might have loved before me.
Its like this constant comparison of whether she is better or i am in my head
Its the curiousity of why he liked her..of whether he still likes her...and its the scary thought that you might be a substitute..or that you might lose him to her one day again...
*shudders*
all these has no supporting evidence and in fact his love now is undeniable.
yet....the selfish you still can't get over the fact that you are not the only one he loved in his life.
selfish thoughts cloud my mind..
they're wrong.and evil, to want to know i'm the only one like ever...
when in fact...i can't even say that for myself..
i don't like myself sometimes...
SO PETTY!
bleah.
I think too much...

lovelies

=) had a lovely dinner at some cha can ting with my lovelies! i had a great time!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
we really should do this more often =D
takes away alot of the stress of school days!
i heart you all =)