comfort zones

When I was in primary school, I was made monitress.Not because I was the epitome of good behaviour, but conversely, because I happened to be hopping around the class on one foot when my form teacher was selecting someone to lead the class.

I helped the teachers run errands after errands, led the class back to the classroom after assembly, made public announcements and even raised the Singapore flag every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I doubt my primary school friends would ever term me a shy kid -  I was outgoing, loud, and popular then. But no one then knew that it took a lot out of me to handle the demands asked of a monitress.

I remembered that my form teacher used to frequently ask me to head over to another class to pass a message to other teachers. Sounds effortless. But I had to calm myself down, count 1 to 10 outside the class and make myself take deep breaths before I knock on the doors of another class. It seems silly now  to think of how much self-psycho-ing I needed to convince myself to do something as simple as stepping into another class. But then, that really seemed like a daunting task.

Now to think of it, I really appreciate being made monitress (thank you Mrs Wong, though you'll never read this). And I firmly believe that I'll never have gotten to where I am now, if not for that opportunity. It's really the first time  I understood what it meant to be put out of my comfort zone, which paved the way for me to try out new things beyond what I think I can do from then on.





Accepting this post has really pushed me to do things I would never have imagined doing. While it gives me a great sense of achievement afterwards, others would never see how much self-psycho-ing it takes me to do many things. I got no idea why my comfort zone has such a small radius. Why does so many things fall beyond my comfort zone?!

What prompted this post? A new challenge.
It's not really often that I get an opportunity like this, but the challenge scares me like no other.
Grrrrr. Pass it up? or face my fears?

sometimes.

It's one of those times I wish I could re-live my life.
Maybe things wouldn't be like this.
Bah.

除旧迎新

I miss my bouncy curls

But I LOVE my new short bob!!

:)

 要想在充满挫折和失败的日子当中寻找快乐

要学会知足常乐

你学会了吗？

最近。。。

心情起伏很大
仿佛整个人失了魂似的
自己都有点认不出我自己

论文交了
应该开心的
一篇论文
搞得我整个世界乌烟瘴气
让我天天哭天强地
日日不得安眠
分分秒秒忐忑不安

乐观的个性跑哪去了？
瞬间长大了
发现付出多少努力到头来可能一场空
雨过了不也一定有彩虹
对好多人失望
原来是真的，求人不如求己。

世界抛弃我的时候， 在我最落末的时候，谢谢你不离不弃。

我要振作！！！