stats

i've never ever been good at maths
not to say i don't like maths
because i find the motivation to do maths everytime i solve ONE question out of the many in my tutorials and exam...

but this stats paper totally devastated my hopes of taking psychology
i couldn't do ANY of the psychology statistics
this is despite me mugging hard, preparing notes, and FINALLY understanding all the concepts and how to apply the dozens of statstical methods.
i was really happy
because i felt that for once, i understood all those numbers and t test, z tests, paired unpaired and whatever not

2 hours paper
i was prepared to leave after 10 minutes of reading the questions.
I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING
sighs
i wish i was better sometimes.

wednesday

YAY!half of my exams are over=D
i'm not bothering already
ever since i screwed up my first paper with my lack of coherence
i was so irritated that day that i ordered Mac and had it delivered right to my hostel room
ate a chocolate fudge sunday on a rainy afternoon
how blissful
it made me happier instantly
and it was only after that that i had the willpower to go study malay

malay was pretty weird
haha
i got confused at the first part because the comprehension was about a conversation between 2 girls and one of them was an indian girl..so i was like..how come Indians speak malay now...and hehe :P and the composition was an either or question about a beautiful place, or my favourite food.
haha. i guess you totally feel like strangling yourself because of your lack of vocab. the only thing i could write about my favourite food is ":i like to eat sweets because eating sweets make me happy. my friends like to eat sweet too"....so i abandoned this topic there was no way i could write even 30 words, when i had to write 150.
and the other one was quite terrible as well..and i almost said NUS was a beautiful place because i prepared a composition about "My School"...so anyway i decided to write a dumb one about Changi Beach and it goes something like this ( in malay of course)

"I think Changi Beach is a beautiful place .
It is in the eastern part of Singapore.
It is very crowded on saturdays and sundays (i don't even know how to say weekends)
I think Changi Beach is beautiful because it has many nice trees and flowers.
I love the white flowers because looking at it makes me happy.
I like to sit under the green tree and look at the blue sea and sky.
I read a book under the tree and see children swimming.
I come to the beach when i am sad because it makes me happy.
so i think Changi Beach is very beautiful. "

-_- that's all my vocab could bring me.WAHHHHHHH........now i know how it feels when i see people struggle to speak chinese.haha.

i love the history paper! it was so unlike JC history.
one question went
" Why did you study HY1101E? Answer how you can apply the materials of the module to real life.."
and another went
" if you lived a hundred years from 1900-1999" which country in Asia would you choose to be in"

wahaha :P why did i study so hard...


2 more papers to go
my dreaded statistics and my psychology mcq
i'm planning after exam activities already
yay

:(

to think i was going to pass sociology!
AIYAAAAAAAA
so demoralised.
i wanna watch movie and procrastinate.

whine

Thanks baby for the room service

HAIYO

i just had to do everything except study
So... after doing everything else like reading story books and surf the net mindlessly
i decided to blog..
eh..i had promised myself that i would mug damn hard so i won't find time to blog but i'm here...
and i'm sure i'm going to blog during the exam week too :p

the dinner with marco's family was pleasantly nice. we ate at this seafood restaurant with loads of people celebrating their birthdays so the birthday song was kept playing ...
it was a pretty wen xin experience..
haha..i thought i didn't overdress but the moment the brother turned up in shorts i was like -_- OH OH.... :P

haha .okay lah. maybe i'll write something if i got inspiration
i'm so full now.
went with my family to some ulu place for some authentic korean food, some charcoal bbq thing.. it was like da chang jin kinda thing lor gosh. we ordered three plates of main dishes and 18 plates of side dishes came along with it.. its so scary to see a full table of food ! i'm a fat pig..or at least i'm going to be...

actually i'm looking forward to end of exams already

yay

quick quick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

compiled list of unique friends

history is driving me nuts and its the first time i feel like i'm going to fail HISTORY so i'm getting quite worried. so despite the fact that is past 1pm and i should be getting to bed to mug tomorrow, i've decided to destress by coming here to blog and then continue to mug till dawn..
=D
i suddenly feel like blogging about my list of unique (weird) friends because there are just so many of them around!! i love them all the same though. hehe. i am a weird friend myself...
okay..here goes

FRIEND WITH THE WEIRDEST HABITS IN SCHOOL

Let's see...
I have a friend H.H who likes to eat paper. He would tear papers from exercise books, crush them and put the crushed ball into his mouth. i thought he was pretty cool.
When everyone was happily playing with the skipping rope in school in primary school( it was the fashion then what...), he would hop like a frog everywhere around the school.
He also got so pissed by the Chinese teacher during her lesson one day, he stood up, both hands pulling the hair on his head, then suddenly tore the chinese textbook into 2, right down the middle.
Woah..he was my hero then..
he still doesn't like Chinese now. :P

VAINPOT FRIENDS

I decided that actually my vainest friends are all GUYS (i can't believe it)
My friend lawrence sends me at least one picture of himself every month asking me to rate his looks and style over msn.
Still must talk about how to improve if i don't give him full marks... -_- does he trust my style so much?!
Another of my male friend Hes., is also vain! haha. he likes to take pictures with caps and sunglasses to add drama and poseur effects . He's also a model and is constantly asking me " am i the most handsome man on earth or what?"

oh ya! i got this friend in RV who puts a mirror on her desk during A maths lesson and looks at it and combs her hair for the whole duration of the lesson.

haha..i dunno where lala ranks in my list, but i still believe her collection of clothes,makeup,bao2 yang2 pin3 can crush me to death.. :P but lala is lala!!! she appears pretty everytime anywhere anyway =)

FRIEND WHO DOESN'T BELONG TO EARTH

haha.. YM wins! i think he's so out of the world no one can rival!
who asks a girl about history questions during a mass dance?! and i simply can't comprehend the way he thinks! woohoo..

FRIEND WHO IS SO SMART, I DON'T NEED TO THINK WHEN I'M WITH HER

eh. Cheeks is top on the list this time...
1. she's the calculator! i do almost no maths when i'm with her ( or ok maybe i try do maths and she tells me the answer before i get any)
2. she's the street directory of Singapore... i can just attempt to ask her for directions and 90% of the time she can tell u how to go and even give u options then weigh which option is the best for you =D
3. she analyses situations for you! tell her ur problem and she'll pause and think for a while and she'll do the cost-benefit analysis for u and give u good solid advice man!
4. she does maths even when its not needed. when people just chuck away receipts after a meal, cheeks looks at the receipt and tells herself whether they count the GST by adding 10% first then 5% or any other way. :P some compound interest or erm dunno what interest thing..

haha..enough to convince not? i'm pretty convinced! haha.

CHEAPO FRIENDS

Fangwei wins! she's the queen. Even me who prides myself on cheap and nice clothes have to ke tou to her..she always tells me about her shirts being bought at ridiculously low prices like $2.50 and they always look nice ! she'll bring weird liquid paper and correction tapes to school that looks like toothpaste, sweets and she'll brag that they're only $1 from the market
Then she'll not give up on anything free! :P she's adorable. i always give those free pens from whatever rubbish events to her and she'll be elated.

VIOLENT FRIENDS

if you think lala slapping you on the back is violent...i've got a friend who BITES...
she would always say "i feel like biting you"
and for one period of time, she actually went around biting the guys and girls in class...on their backs, necks, hands, legs.....*freaks out*

------------------------------------haha okay lah :P i gotta go mug. blogging about my weird friends makes me happier now! chiong ah!

STUDY CAMP

MUGGING MODE!


i'm mugging in my hostel room!!
m surprised at my efficiency today
i finished studying almost three quarters of psychology in one day! haha maybe i'm just reading the notes and nothing went in...
i'm just happy making my new notes colourful and colour-coordinated.
probably guilty that my weekend was spent procrastinating
eeks. going to finish the rest of it later tonight!!! before i start on STATS tomorrow
did i mention i hate stats now? where is miss ng??
anyway i realise i quite like mugging! it seems a long time since i prepared for major exams like this one!
i like drinking hot chocolate and reading notes
i like feeling like i'm hardworking
yay

marco's mum just invited me to go to a family dinner to celebrate his dad's birthday
ohmygod i'm fainting!!
what should i wear?
Retail therapy anyone?
what should i give his dad?
i fainted.
his brother's girlfriend will be there too
stress...
why do i not feel like i'm 19...
doesn't sound like something a 19 year old has to be stressed about
haha!

=)

pardon my ramblings on the previous entry
i'm okay now
mugging for the exams
don't really have much confidence but i can't let my CAP drop low on the first semester of school!
work hard people! i can't wait to get together with you guys in December!!!!
back to statistics for now
yucks
A level statistics never seemed so easy till now

life ( long entry...pardon my ramblings..ignore this entry unless you're bored .haha)

THE NEVER-ENDING WORRIES OF A WOMAN WHO THINKS TOO MUCH
(long entry...pardon my ramblings...ignore this post unless you're bored..i just needed to ramble)

When i was worried our relationship might be less than perfect, i got anxious.
It sounds rather ridiculous actually...but i was actually worried about something that hasn't even happened...i was just convinced anything might happen...
i was constantly plagued by questions of what if we quarrel..what would i do if we disagree of this and that...
it was almost as though i was too protective over something that i'm treasure so much...
he didn't let me read the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"...
he felt there wasn't any formula to sustaining a relationship other than effort.
yea..its probably right..sometimes the more you try..the more you find that you don't understand someone and the more you feel disheartened

our relationship has its highs and lows.
we squabble over the phone sometimes..
and its so ironic because we squabble because we wanted the best for the other person, we wanted to save each other the trouble...we were just both so protective of this beautiful love we have for each other.
these few days have been so magical for me.
i'm probably a hard princess to please...with my character..i dislike boredom..bring me to a place to eat more than twice, its boring..
eat dinners and lunch and take walks all the time..its boring
i'm so used to drama in my life!
island hopping or rollerblading when i'm adventurous,
sitting by cafes to read books when i'm feeling nostalgic,
singing, dancing, running... i somehow just need something different in my life all the time..
change is my constant.
and i mean rapid changes all the time..
and for a person like my boyfriend to keep up to my pace is probably killing him.
he can be contented with eating the same fare everyday or strolling around in the same parks..
i guess being a relationship and even being friends with people means giving and taking
take a bit of yourself out to accomodate the other.

he came over to surprise me with "room service" at my hostel on thursday and we went to science centre to play on friday.. he spent his off day with me just solving silly scientific puzzles and just looking at those stuff..its really a good place to build a relationship up when u crack ur brains to solve stuff together...saturday was spent at KAP mugging for my exam and me making dinner for him at my house.. ya...look at the activity i need in life to feel un-bored..
i'm a hyperactive.

anyways i don't exactly know how to explain how magical everything was but it made me a very happy woman this weekend..
communication is the key? i finally understood what it means...and communication requires you to tell the truth to the other even if it hurts...and just working things out for the long run.

WHY can't i just be happy and the story ends with me being a happy woman?!?
no...i have to start worrying AGAIN...

Its like feeling like you are his one and only at one point in time...
You are brimming with happiness and bliss, convinced he was waiting for you all his life...
only to start wondering whether you were his one and only all his life
its so ironic for me to talk about this, since i believe in trying out relationships before finding THE ONE, not giving up on love and opportunity.
But being a petty woman, it still feels weird to think about previous people that he might have loved before me.
Its like this constant comparison of whether she is better or i am in my head
Its the curiousity of why he liked her..of whether he still likes her...and its the scary thought that you might be a substitute..or that you might lose him to her one day again...
*shudders*
all these has no supporting evidence and in fact his love now is undeniable.
yet....the selfish you still can't get over the fact that you are not the only one he loved in his life.
selfish thoughts cloud my mind..
they're wrong.and evil, to want to know i'm the only one like ever...
when in fact...i can't even say that for myself..
i don't like myself sometimes...
SO PETTY!
bleah.
I think too much...

lovelies

=) had a lovely dinner at some cha can ting with my lovelies! i had a great time!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
we really should do this more often =D
takes away alot of the stress of school days!
i heart you all =)

random

sometimes trying understanding someone better leads to the realisation that you actually don't understand that someone...
and that no matter how hard you try to understand that someone
it still seems you don't understand enough of that someone
its just never enough..

there are times...

There are times I wish I could be better..
There are times I wish I could be as pretty as the pretty girls that walk past me
with their flowery dress,flawless skin and perfect figure
There are times, I wish I would measure up somehow, and not feel lousy about myself
and step out feeling confident and not depressed that yet another mundane day has gone past me.


There are times I wish I don't getting jealous over people better than me in everway
I wish for myself to be the perfect girlfriend. perfect friend, perfect daughter..
but it never happens does it?

random blabberings..i don't even know what's the hussle in my life about..everyday has scarily became a routine...
i'm just being dragged around because i have to be there
not that i detest going to classes
but sometimes i yearn for a little more warmth in where i am

something tugs at my heartstrings everytime..
I wish i could have gone abroad to study...anywhere...
a little more passion, excitement into my life
a little more anticipation, variety, unboring days...

wedding bells ringing

Zhiqi's sister's wedding on Saturday was a memorable event
Long awaited event!
I love weddings!
I love hearing the wedding bells, listening to the excited murmur of the crowd
I love seeing the bride and groom smiling blissfully at each other.





















and how everything really makes you wanna get married too.
Cheeks was really ultra super uber pretty that day!
LOOK!




















and it kinda made me wonder how it feels to have my friends get married someday!
i don't know why the thought of it makes me wanna cry!!! i wanna cry when i see mao's invitation in my mailbox one day..or like hug my girlfriends when they telll me they're getting married
=) smiles. just the thought of it makes my day a happy one.

eeks..i'm back to school already and exams are REALLY NEARING..

i can't believe i wasted my weekend just resting sleeping and reading my storybook..procrastinating like anything...

random

went for a picnic at sentosa that day before i mugged for my two malay tests on Monday =)
i like to take little breaks to pamper myself haha.
look at that cute basket!!! =D



















here are some nice balloons!!! love them! bought them to surprise my sweetheart...i'm going nuts...i'm going to ask a stranger to pass him his first clue which wil lead him to his second and third and....until he finds my present
my last surprise before i start ignoring him and mugging for the exams
anyway i got to buck up soon exams are coming sighs...
time to face reality eh
need some friends love quick too.

anyways i'm so not used to my short hair
haha =D nothing to twirl when i'm bored!!!!

took a bus to holland village today to get them...
realised suddenly how much i miss those non-air conditioned bus now that almost everyone is air-conditioned
i used to love them...
how the wind blows upon your face...
ah... such simple pleasures in life