=)oops.
something tells me my friends won't be surprised

haha

don't say its not nice pleaseeeeeeeeeeee

anyway i really liked my hairdresser and the salon i tumbled into
its really nice to be away from Jean Yip and their office politics for a while and indulge in much laughter, jokes and warmth in a small little salon in jurong...

Friday, October 27, 2006, 3:27 PM

happily-ever-after-wonders

Its raining again with loads of loud thunder and lighting flashes across the dark sky...
I guess I've always preferred such rainy days than sunny ones..
I like the breeze sweeping across my face...
I like holding a cup of hot chocolate in my hands, just daydreaming in my hostel room..



Was thinking of how people get more cynical as they grow up...
i believe in fairytales
i like how the prince and princess lives happily ever after and the bad guy gets pushed out of the picture
i guess that's why i switch off the telly when couples quarrel, or when the bad guys win..

But suddenly, it just struck me that no one believes in fairytales or happily-ever-after endings in this era anymore
Of course, there are those who do.
They are seen as idealistic or simply deemed as not ever being in a relationship before..
because those who have, most of them at least, have had their hearts broken enough not to believe in promises of forever and eternity.

Most of us crave intimacy and relationships that would last till the end of time
But there's always a fear inside us that makes us hold back from believing that what we want and dream of, is truly possible.
Some of my friends feel this way because of past experiences, others just lose faith from seeing other couples close to them go separate ways.

" wah! a few months already....you guys are still together ah"
" i think they'll last only only 3 months...the most 6..."
what happened to our faith in enduring relationships?

But it would be unfair to blame us for being so cynical.
We wouldn't even bat an eyelid when people informs us that someone in our social circle just broken up with his/her other half
common scenario, common news what.

It pains me to see people lock up their heart and throw the key away after getting their hearts broken, or seeing people get theirs broken.
Call me a hopeless romantic, but i totally believe in love.
i never stopped believing in it, despite getting my heart broken dozens of times.
Falling in and out of love may seem frivolous to others
Yet, who can see that i always put my heart in soul into loving someone. who can see my hurt when i get my heart broken... who will know the tears i've shed for the relationship i wished would work out...
People just assume i'm not the least affected because i fall in love again after some time.
so i'm deemed a frivolous woman.
but do they know
I'm just a woman who never stopped believing in love and happy fairytale endings...

Thursday, October 26, 2006, 12:19 PM

time no enough!

sometimes it seems like you've got too much time on your hands
cos everyone's busy to ask u out
and as YM puts it..it seems everyone is ignoring you for the moment
but sometimes you are so filled to the brim with things to do they threaten to crush you...
anyways i received an SMS by cheeks to ask me to support Jias so i just said yes and ta-dah..without even knowing what am i supporting i went to meet cheeks at City Hall! we two had Swensens at Suntec Fountain of Wealth area..!
comeon..look at this picture, raise ur hands and say cheeks looks beautiful! she does!!!!
oh ya..look how the lamp behind fits perfectly like a hat on her =D

Turns out that Jias is performing at the Esplanade with her hall mates..
it was a very light-hearted half an hour performance which i enjoyed very much
provided much-needed serenity to my hectic days in school..




































afterthat i headed outside for a walk only to be pleasantly surprised by a band playin.
it was pretty good
all the uncles and aunties there were all shaking their heads to the rhythm
chuckled to myself as i remembered pricila would probably die here and urge me to go because of the loud blasting rock music
hehe. i miss my friends.














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i played badminton with marco at clementi stadium that day!
comeon girls...who haven't exercised for ages??
lol..i'm beginning to appreciate PE lessons and captain ball sessions...

















watched death note at vivocity last night
it was nice...
kinda evoked lots of thoughts about the evil nature of people
but the bad guy didn't get caught in the end!
aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww... i don't like this kinda ending....

Monday, October 23, 2006, 5:18 PM

mad rush

its scary how time passes so unknowingly
its scary how i get so caught up in the checklist of things i have to do each day that i don't realise how time has passed me by...
mum reminded me that 2007 is coming..
gosh.
that means i'm going to be twenty soon...
now i know what lala means when she says its scary to turn twenty
its the big 2-0 already
and somehow it seems i haven't started living life yet.at least not how it is supposed to be..
*shrugs*
mad rush of deadlines although i'm rather thankful for the weekend .
This weekend was my much awaited break with no essays to rush ( finally)
i had to come back to face reality this week though. heh. got statistic report to write.....!!!
everything still seems so alien and *boom* exam's less than a few weeks away! eeks!

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reading Jodi Picoult's " The Tenth Circle"
kinda stuck on the book
and i really appreciate how books kinda detach me from reality for tiny moments
haven't read books other than my textbooks for quite a while
the book is kinda thought provoking
i can't imagine my daughter getting raped and having to face the world after that
sighs.
*CHOY* that won't happen...won't happen...won't happen...

anyways i'm very much in love with these kinda cook-on-the-spot food recently!
look what good food does to a woman!! =D















been feelin kinda guilty
i wanted to ask **** **** out that day
haven been talking to him for eons
haven't seen him for ages
just that he always happens to call at times where i'm filled to my neck with work
and when i call him back he's busy
its scary how friends lose touch just like that
the endless streams of excuses of " i'm busy", " i'll call u back soon k", or " let's hang out soon when we're both free"

Thursday, October 19, 2006, 8:28 AM

POP

Marco invited me to his Passing Out Parade at the Home Team Academy yesterday
Its been 4 months since he's been enlisted
but it really seems like eternity since he lost his freedom
He's been posted to some high commissioner headquarters to do planning and organisation.
His preference to be a neighbourhood police officer was all turned down
He was told that they need people with good A level results to be in headquarters and not out in the field..
Ew..

Anyway i was super gan jiong
because i had to go in with his dad and mum...
Even deciding on what to wear was a headache
its the first time i went out with them alone and they were, well, trying to make small talk and joke a bit..
so what turned out to be an awkward situation didn't turn out that awkward lah =D
anyway,he told me he had a surprise for me..
and wooohoo..
Best Trainee award!!




































his parents were all so proud of him
i guess it was a pretty heartwarming scene...=)
so many anxious papas and mamas were around screaming " that's my kid "
the aunties behind were busy commenting on how some people looked like they had short legs...and when the guest of honour would finish his boring monotonous speech.

i made cookies and a present for him too..
made those when i got too bored with essays and assignments

















I've been procrastinating for too long! sharks...
Why do the essays all have to come at one time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ew. i'm staying up to do history essay
its 1am on a friday
whine.
i'll go out to 7/11 for a walk first...

anyway my sociology teacher likes to call me LONG or mispronounce my name as " MEL- VIS" (after countless reminders that its MAY-VIS)...
badthing he likes to call my name all the time
*shudders*

oh well!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006, 5:28 PM

history lecture is getting boring
so i decided to blog on my fortune yet again...

Sunday morning....
I started off at JP, editting my sociology essay with Marco then buying a present for my brother's birthday
yawns.
i was exhausted
dragging myself around..
so i decided to get myself a cup of "teh"at Ya Kun Kaya Toast after that at lot 1
so in my groggy state...
i didn't even realise that i left my wallet on the table while paying

you guys are probably going to shoot me now
me too
i can't believe at that period of time, i actually lost BOTH my beloved wallet and handphone
sighs
i'm so blur
always getting into trouble

anyway i didnt' realise that i didn't have my wallet until monday
i was searching for it high and low
in my hostel
back at home
until i decided to go back to lot 1 to check things up
i was terribly frustrated at myself for always being such a blurhead.
and a broke blurhead at that!!!
i went back to Ya Kun and asked the lady if she saw a wallet
" WHY YOU ONLY COME TODAY...!!!!!" the women shrieked to me in Chinese..
" i just realised today.. -_-" i said sheepishly

sighs
i'm a lucky girl.

getting very frustrated with **** ****. he's getting on my nerves
sighs. i was rude to him tt day
gosh. i should be bettter to my friends...

Sunday, October 15, 2006, 3:27 PM

the most amazing thing just happened

I've always believed I'm a very lucky girl..
Things always went the right way for me...
and although i've met with many little obstacles on the way... everything was still turned out ok for me =)
until friday.
friday the 13th of October..
i was at orchard with yihan...
elated that i finally got a chance to meet her and go shopping with her...
we ended up at isetan and i was trying to find a dress to wear to marco's P.O.P ceremony...
after several rounds of fitting, we decided to head somewhere for a drink...
and that's when i realised my phone wasn't in my backpocket
alarm bells rang violently in my head
my beloved chocolate phone wasn't around...
i searched desperately in my bag
but it was clear---it wasn't there.
whine.
i went up immediately, certain that i dropped it only moments ago...
but it wasn't in the fitting room
i was frantic
yihanwas tyring to calm me down
so i looked around that floor like a mad women, combing the ground and asking every saleslady whether they saw my new phone..
sighs..ending up making a report instead
all hopes seemed gone when yihan tried calling my number but ended up with a pathetic "please record your message after ...."
sighs
i was totally devastated
thinking how i would explain everything to my parents.
i was devastated by how my laptop crashed the other time...and how my phone got lost...
i was somehow convinced my luck had run out... and it kinda made me wanna cry.
so in desperation i sent a message using yihan's phone saying " i'm the owner of the phone and this phone is a very important gift to me. so please return it to me, i'm willing to compensate you in cash..."
sighs. no reply.
i was quite traumatised that marco won't be out this weekend to tell me what to do and solve my shit...but i still messaged him anyway. to my surprise, he actually didn't get confined afterall due to some miracle.
I was so thankful..i went straight to him.
He calmed me down...saying any problem that can be solved by money, isn't a problem..
so after much persuading, he convinced me to tell my parents about it..
so ...
i called my dad...

"papa i lost my phone!!!it dropped out of my jean's pocket at isetan :("

of all responses... he actually said...

"oh my god...got any videos or photos tt cannot be circulated not????"
-_-

"NO LAH PAPA!!!!! EVERYTHING'S DECENT!!!"

"orh..hehe"

anyway i cut off the line and my boyfriend managed to get me a spare samsung phone to use at the moment while daddy went to get my free replacement SIM card.
i was trying to control my anger...
silently hoping that if i don't curse the person if i don't scold the person...the person might return it to me...
i was telling myself maybe the person who picked it up is very poor and needed money to survive or something..
sighs..
so saturday survived with me still having to rush a sociology paper, which was given on friday night, despite my lousy mood...

lucky marco was there to go through all the thick bulk of books...and to edit my essay for me. once yesterday and once today ..i was simply too tired after rushing that research paper for that night... *thankful* i was starting to fill that i wasn't so "suay" afterall...
i had a nice boyfriend...and i finished my termpaper...

so i reached home and told papa i finished my termpaper and he went..
"orh..okay..let's have a celebration..."
he went into the room and took out a LG chocolate phone..
i thought he bought one for me because it was without the phone wrap and i was like "THANK YOU PAPA!!!!! OH MY GOD..."
then he told me:
" NOT NEW LAH! can you believe the person took the useless SIM card, took away the phone wrap and returned your phone?? its a miracle"
and i was like stunned !!!!
gosh. i'm so thankful. I'm so thankful.
although i lost all my numbers and nice photos...
although my nice phone wrap's gone..
but my phone's HOME!!!

The more I think of it..the more i'm convinced i'm a very blessed woman.
*thankful*

Sunday, October 08, 2006, 8:50 PM

=) Pictures on the halloweeeen charity party which lala invited us to go.. it was pretty fun lah...loved the food...and the comical looking ghosts!!!

Really enjoyed myself talking and laughing with cheeks, dad and mao after the party at coffee bean. The conversation was great... and it was also then that i realised i really miss them so much.. especially after being in university. Its not everyday that you can get a group of people whom click with you so well, and know you inside out, sit down together over a cup of ice chocolate and start crapping, bitching and getting nostalgic about old times *awww*

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The gang of us went to ulu Party World KTV at Chinatown before heading over to MAF in school later that day. i still insist that its pretty sleazy looking..grins...ahhhh....but i had sooo much fun singing frigging old tv drama series songs...acting cute for rainie yang's songs and screaming for FIR's "Get High"=D as usual, we took loads of erm.. weird photos =D

This year's MAF was kinda weird to me...

Maybe its because of the haze. PSI was at an all time high of 150 that night. EW.... the haze's kinda disturbing when you can't see things in front of you clearly... everyone was trying to be high during community singing... but i guess i loved the mass dance at the end of everything..especially when i haven't been "brutally flung around" by Mao for a long time. i was totally drenched in sweat and not a hair on my head was in place... haha =D but i do really miss HC =)

We ended up playing sparklers and candles at the stairs. WE TOTALLY MADE THE PSI ROCKET HIGH !!! anyway Jiurong's fireworks didn't work!!!! so the last photo was taken while everyone was laughing at the failed attempt...the rocket didn't even leave the ground. grins.


i love my boyfriend...

i was so inspired by some TV show in which the girl proposed to the guy...

so i dated my boyfriend out on a date, pretending to be the guy for once... it was pretty cool...

but ew...i realised being a guy is not fun... you have to think where to bring the girl for the date...whether its romantic not....you have to foot the bill...you have to send the girl home ...ahhh... i like being a girl so so much suddenly! just be pretty, smell nice, and get pampered like a princess... *dreamys..*